I feel like i've lost touch with some people.. people who used to be a huge part of my life. I'm still connected with most of them through the conveniences of myspace or facebook, but we don't have that relationship that we used to have. and i miss it.
I love my life, how things have turned out, and where they're going.. but i can't help but think about the way things used to be, and certain things i miss about "the good ol' days."
Those people i'm thinking about will probably never see this... but I miss your friendship.

And on another note... lately i've been feeling like i'm almost ready to move on to that "next step" in my life. The scary step. The exciting step. I don't think i'll ever actually feel completely ready... just like i never thought i would feel completely ready for marriage until it happened. There are just certain things you can't fully prepare yourself for, and won't know how to handle, until you experience them first hand. But i do feel like i could be ready to make that adjustment, if it happened.
And a part of me really wants it to happen.

I actually got sick.. for the first time in, well, a very long time...
Went to bed tuesday night with my stomach feeling weird, but didn't think anything of it.. then woke up at 3:30 in the morning feeling really crappy and ended up throwing up a few times.. and only got like 4 hours of sleep.

Blegch.

So i spent all day yesterday laying on the couch watching tv.
couldn't eat anything.. until this morning i ate some toast.

Feeling better now that i've got some food in me.
Not sure if i'm going to Bible study tonight or not.

So.. what do you say when a friend who's been living with her boyfriend/father-of-her-child for a couple years tells you they're now engaged? I mean... of course, I said congratulations.. but it's like, um, yay? now you get to continue living the way you already have been!
It's just hard for me to be excited for them in that kind of situation...

My sister's pregnant with their third child.. due in September.
It is very exciting! but everyone in the family is also a little concerned, cause they're not in the best financial position right now, and have barely been getting by with two kids... but I love my sister, and I know they do everything in their power to take care of their children.